Post by Drifter on Nov 10, 2011 20:56:23 GMT -6
I'm going to roleplay Marquee for November Reign, but after that I'm going to be taking some time off. My head is nowhere near in the right place right now and it's going to take me some time to get things straight in my life. This has nothing to do with WPW or efedding.
Right now I'm having to keep my 3 boys by myself 4 days a week. When I say by myself, I mean with no help whatsoever. My mom is the only family I have and I'm afraid she is in the early stages of alzhiemers (sp?). She is almost like a child most days. In the last few weeks I've found her walking in the middle of the road at 5 am in the rain. She wears one glove because she's afraid she will loose her wedding ring. She only takes a bath about once every two to three weeks because she is afraid someone will break in on her. Her medicine causes her to lose bladder control. She calls my oldest son by my grown cousin's name. And she is all I have besides my kids. I honestly hate my fiance more than anyone and anything ever in my life right now for shitting on me in the middle of the worst time in my life.
I've basically stayed out and stayed drunk on the weekends just to relieve the stress of the entire world on my shoulders. I've had one unexpected friend in my ex-wife from like 5 years ago that's helped me out, but she has a jealous boyfriend so there's only so much she can do without adding more stress on top of me. The last thing I need is a 6'2" 260 lb. cop looking for me (her boyfriend) over nothing more than a friendship. I've got another friend that's tried to be there for me but his last girlfriend died of cancer a little over 2 months ago at age 24. He's just started talking to another girl so he doesn't have alot of free time.
I wanted to let everyone know because I didn't want anyone depending on me and then let them down.
I don't want any sympathy from anyone. I'm going to be okay. I know how strong I am, but I honestly know that it's going to take some time before I can get things straight with my kids, my mom, my ex, and mostly myself.
When I return I'll be back to full blast. You guys want to help me, just make sure WPW is still here when I return.
Right now I'm having to keep my 3 boys by myself 4 days a week. When I say by myself, I mean with no help whatsoever. My mom is the only family I have and I'm afraid she is in the early stages of alzhiemers (sp?). She is almost like a child most days. In the last few weeks I've found her walking in the middle of the road at 5 am in the rain. She wears one glove because she's afraid she will loose her wedding ring. She only takes a bath about once every two to three weeks because she is afraid someone will break in on her. Her medicine causes her to lose bladder control. She calls my oldest son by my grown cousin's name. And she is all I have besides my kids. I honestly hate my fiance more than anyone and anything ever in my life right now for shitting on me in the middle of the worst time in my life.
I've basically stayed out and stayed drunk on the weekends just to relieve the stress of the entire world on my shoulders. I've had one unexpected friend in my ex-wife from like 5 years ago that's helped me out, but she has a jealous boyfriend so there's only so much she can do without adding more stress on top of me. The last thing I need is a 6'2" 260 lb. cop looking for me (her boyfriend) over nothing more than a friendship. I've got another friend that's tried to be there for me but his last girlfriend died of cancer a little over 2 months ago at age 24. He's just started talking to another girl so he doesn't have alot of free time.
I wanted to let everyone know because I didn't want anyone depending on me and then let them down.
I don't want any sympathy from anyone. I'm going to be okay. I know how strong I am, but I honestly know that it's going to take some time before I can get things straight with my kids, my mom, my ex, and mostly myself.
When I return I'll be back to full blast. You guys want to help me, just make sure WPW is still here when I return.
